Am I not worthy of love

Am I not worthy of love?

I'm having a vulnerable moment right now. Please forgive me. I'm a very strong individual but I need to vent, otherwise i'll go insane. lol Forgive me. I'm really crying my eyes out as I type this because i've realized no one has ever shown true interest in me. I'm 24. I don't know what it's like to be wooed by a man. I get so nervous around them when they're too close. Because of me never dating, I never felt worthy enough of a man's attention. In the past when they'd say something to me I'd think something was wrong with them because they were talking to me. Since then i've learned my worth.. but i'm still nervous around men and uncomfortable when they get too close. I'm tall.. a little over 5'10. I'm also overweight. I know i'm not considered attractive to many men, but I love myself. I'm working on my weight, not for no man but for my own self esteem. Yet, I'm just so hurt because no one sees the beauty in my heart, only the physical and I have so much to offer. Am I not worthy of love because of my appearance? I've never dated anyone my whole life. No one ever showed interest, and when they did I pushed them away because they weren't suitable for me. They showed sexual interest. Nothing serious. Am I not worthy of anyone's love? sigh. Love doesn't fancy me, I don't even get it from my own family members.No exaggeration. sad. But I have so much of it to give. My love is overflowing. I've always wanted a child to spoil with love. Give them all the love that was never given to me, but don't know if it will ever happen. I also don't know how to share my love of self with others. I'm giving myself time, but learning to accept how to be alone. I love every inch of my body and no one could ever get between that. I have enough confidence to walk in my own skin, with pride, and hold my head up if I have to live like this. So be it. Everybody wasn't meant to have a soulmate, maybe I was put out here to fulfill another mission. But I sometimes wonder, am I not worthy of love?